Germaine notes and shares

 All social interactions have caused massive anxiety in me.  I'm not sure where it comes from but I know that I have held on to an inferiority complex all my life.  We moved around a lot when I was a child and therefore had many new beginnings/starts in new places, new countries with new languages...  Starting kindergarten school in France as a Dutch speaker (I remember my parents giving teachers a French Dutch dictionary...), then starting 4th grade in Florida US as a French/Dutch speaker age 9 not knowing a word of English (this time teachers were given a French/English dictionary to be able to converse with me)....then moving back to Europe, Belgium,  and finally going to a multi-lingual school to continue my education in the English language...  Growing up and being the different one that can't understand and can't express herself adequately was tough and made me feel small and irrelevant, last, unheard, a last resort...  I have carried this with m...

 I want to share how much easier and better it is handling difficult situations whilst being AF. BTW AF is A lcohol F ree. I've been a bit quiet as shit was hitting the fan for me last week and I'm still getting into the routine of journaling...  Looking back I still can't believe last week, but I'm fine, I'm truly doing OK, I'm calm and kinda grounded too.  These are amazing new feelings and states of mind I have not experienced for a very long time. [My alcohol history: happy daily drinker all my adult life, everyone around me drinks, never saw any issues with it, and was pretty good at holding my drink too.  Happy drinking till drinking was the only happy thing in my life.  So my alcohol free days were at 0% up to November last year.  Then I tried to cut down, which was horrible.  Alcohol was on my mind all the time and not drinking it was very hard.  My alcohol free percentage probably reached 20% between December 2023 to March 2024. ...

So my intention was to journal most days in the week right?  Well there has been about 3 weeks of inactivity here so far.  Whilst, so much has happened in this very lifey life. (I'll update on that soon)  I'm not going to beat myself up about not journaling, I'm here now and that is a gain. Yay! So I will develop this further but essentially establishing a solid morning routine that does not require any thinking in the first 2-3 hours every morning is vital. Mine would (ideally) look something like: Wake at dawn - set smart alarm clock to wake me each morning at dawn no snooze permitted count 5, 4, 3, 2, 1, and get up out of bed  brush teeth /get dressed into walking/running gear - garments laid out the night before leave the house with both dogs / and dog treats (also prepared the night before) / and phone exercise for at least 1 hour in the early morning light that is meant to be so good for us synchronize breakfast time with kids [around 7:30] drive kids to schoo...

 A real-time personal development diary - blog why? 'cause success is individual and greatness is collective, it's shared success.  What is success?  Success is when you measure backwards and see progress, it's the gain! 😘 Who is G?  Well, her name is Germaine.   No middle name. Who is she?   Well, her intro on LinkedIn says: “Germaine Langendijk won University of Queensland’s excellence in public health research prize and has earned a UK primary healthcare organization their first performance rating star. She is published in reputable scientific journals, and effectively communicates evidence in various other formats. She is a public health professional and graduate of the NSW Public Health Officer Training Program, with solid informatics and performance management backgrounds. She is the go-to person for project management and evaluation. She currently provides solutions to health organizations as an independent contractor. She has worked with NSW Healt...